some things are never meant to be

i find myself pathetic. to be afraid of going home even at age of 21.
having been so grown up, yet i still fear going home.
afraid of her n him.

i thought all these should go away as i grow up.
as i mature. as time passes.
shouldnt those bring my fears along with them?

i was naive.
i had assume getting along would naturally become easy.
why is it not true?