whatever

i know what was wrong.
i was ill and felt horrible.
i was very irritable. my head seems to be cracking up.
and so all the mean n nasty things start to gather in.

naively, i had expect my boyfriend to provide
more tender loving care.

but to the contrary, he had found it to be disturbing.
he too found me to be too demanding too stressful.
not at all understanding or considerate.

of cos, over the two weeks,
i had become more irritated than ever.
for he had gave me nothin i wanted.
not the concern.
but ended up with the quarrels.

he was more concern with the irritable moods,
that he think was pickin on him
n definitely not deserving
than my well being.

never pause for a while to think bout the real cause?
maybe it's the general assumption this woman
is forever like that. just tryin to be difficult.
it's in her blood, man.
i hate it more when ppl label me this way.

maybe the way to cry for some gentle attention
wasnt meant to be like this.

so i'm wrong.

why